Last night, I pulled up this blog and went way back to the very beginning, the fall of 2007. We'd started this blog since we had just moved 800 miles away from two sets of first-time grandparents...and they were all distraught about missing the new light of their lives growing up. I sat last night watching video after video of our baby Dallin....and I wanted to cry. For a few reasons.
One, my baby boy is gone.
In his place is a gangly, inquisitive, smart, messy, very grown up boy. Who turns five in just over a month. It breaks my heart a little. I can never have that baby back.
Which brings me to Two.
I got to spend so much time with Dallin! It was just me and my baby boy, all day, every day. He was the center of our world. Susie didn't get that, and this baby is going to get it even less.
And to number Three. I miss our life in Oregon!!!
It was so simple. Though law school was no walk in the park, our time in Eugene still seems idyllic. We had a nice apartment (let's not talk about the complex, however), a great ward, TERRIFIC friends (who I still miss like crazy) and we lived in a really cool city. Though I love being close to our families, and Utah is home to me, there's just no place like Eugene.
I do realize that a lot of my mourning is for a time that is lost. Even if we had been able to stay in Eugene, it wouldn't have been the same in many ways (still would have been awesome though...just not the same...or meant to be). I just have to content myself with visiting as often as we can manage and keeping close tabs on our friends. Don't forget about us, friends! We think often of you!
And on the bright side, we'll have a whole week in Oregon in just a couple months. We were planning on going up in September regardless, and then my brother-in-law Matt (he followed in Landon's footsteps and started law school at UO after we left) proposed to his girlfriend, so we planned our trip around their wedding. We plan on hitting the coast, wandering my favorite bookstore, feeding the goats at Lone Pine, attending our old ward, eating at Papa's and Sweet Life, visiting our favorite parks and seeing as much of our friends as we can.
I can't wait.
1 comment:
It is so true how much less time you have with each additional baby. And less time with the other kids as well. I think I've decided the way to go would've been to have a baby every 16 years or so. Ok, maybe not. :)
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